🌟 Energy Matrix Reflection Summary

我这学期正在上一门叫做ENGR 306: Capital Formation: Design Theory in Practice 的课。目前，我感觉这门课更多是关于自我挖掘、团队组织与指导他人。

以下笔记来自Week 2的Studio课堂研讨，围绕的是我的“Energy Matrix”，一起来看看我们都讨论了什么吧！

🧠 Personal Profile Overview

Enneagram Type:

• Type 1: The Reformer
• Core values: Integrity, being good, being right
• Core fear: Being corrupt, evil, or defective

Growth Direction (Integration):

• Moves toward Type 7
• Becomes more optimistic, versatile, open to opportunities, joyful, and playful

Stress Direction (Disintegration):

• Moves toward negative aspects of Type 4
• Becomes egocentric, struggles with self-esteem, experiences self-destructive thoughts

SCARF Model Priorities:

• Fairness
• Relatedness

Working Genius Types:

• Invention
• Wonder

🎯 Life Purpose

• Discipline-Level Purpose:
  Solve critical issues in robotic autonomous systems

• Broader Purpose:
  Use personal genius to help those in need and drive social change

🚨 Upper Limit Challenges

• Tendency to blame self when things feel too good
• Fear of disloyalty or abandonment, particularly regarding family or past advisors
• Deflecting praise or encouragement from others

❓ Group Q&A Responses

Q: What makes you excited?

• Creating new things

Q: What triggers your negative self-image?

• Comparing self to others
• Holding self to idealized Type 1 standards

Q: How do you handle setbacks?

• Initial response: Escape
• Followed by reflection and writing to organize thoughts
• Eventually finds a way forward

Q: How do you blame or punish yourself?

• Mental comparisons to personal and societal expectations
• Often occurs late at night when tired

Q: Are you happy?

• “I think I am.”

Q: Plans for the future – academia or industry?

• Currently in research
• Considering founding a company in the future

Q: Fear of being evil – what does that mean to you?

• Not about harming the world
• More about being “evil” toward oneself (e.g., neglecting health, not using time wisely)

🗣️ “If I Were You” – Peer Advice

1. Follow your own vision, but don’t stress too much about the path.

   • There are many ways to reach the same goal.

2. Create a daily checklist:

   • List behaviors that are healthy vs. unhealthy
   • Monitor and reduce actions you see as harmful or “evil”

3. Build a support system:

   • Find close friends or “adventurers” to talk to
   • Have someone check in with you to prevent isolation

4. Understand loyalty concerns:

   • Write down what actions you associate with disloyalty
   • Identify to whom you feel most concerned about being disloyal

5. Explore your fears:

   • Write down fears that limit your potential and serve as upper-limit blocks

💭 Reflections on Feedback

• Appreciated the idea of writing down fears that create upper limits
• Agreed with advice on seeking connection when tempted to escape
• Realized that through relationship and reflection, can recognize when actually in a positive and healthy state
• Resonated with advice to follow intuition but avoid excessive pressure
• Acknowledged that stress is a challenge that needs to be actively managed